The Letter

I don't know where to start so, im gonna have to say sorry?...i said i'll be back but i didn't, and again server has nothing to do with it...and by pressure, i meant pressure of containing my tears and holding back myself from crying...lol! With everything you told me, about your date and Hector, i cant help it but feels somewhat hurt...though i know im not in any right to feel that way...and im sorry.

Do you remember how we met and ended up talking about everything? I was looking for someone to talk to, a friend, until i saw your name and mistaken it for a girl..lol!

You seem kind of snob that time and i remember my words made you confuse 'cause i was used to texting. And right then and there, was a start of something special between us.And i never regret any of that.

The idea of breaking up was something i never wanted, but what i have to do, what WE have to do.Lot of things happened to you at that time, we weren't able to talk as much as we used to, and if we were to pursue with the relationship while you were dealing with problems, it would only make us grow apart which i think would only hurt even more.And breaking up was the only option.I also want to lessen your worry about how i feel whenever you're not around. But i am glad and happy that we still manage to keep our friendship.

One thing i never get to prepared myself, is when time comes that you will have to tell me about a girl your going out with or a new gf.I thought it would be fine with me, 'cause whenever you tell me things about a girl you don't intentionally rejected,i don't feel any jealousy or something, i was even making fun of it,of what happened.But when you told me about the date you'll have with Yolanda, and your sort of happy about it, i felt...weird.Like all of a sudden i felt like crying. Don't get me wrong, im happy that finally your going out.I'm sure she's a nice girl and you deserve to be happy, have fun with her or with anybody...Its just,i cant fake myself and pretend its cool when in fact im not.I never have any doubts whenever i tell you things about other guys 'cause i know you're fine with it, you even give me advices whenever i needed one,right? And i thought i can do the same with you, but i was wrong...I guess im kinda jealous, that they've got to be with you, laugh wit you,see your sweet smile, hold you close and just be with an amazing guy that is you.And one important reason is because i cant deny the fact that i was inlove with you and still..


No other guy made me feel the way you did. I felt the sincerity and honesty in everything you told me. I know how much you care for me..how special i am to you..and how much you truly loved me and i thank you for that.I'll always be thankful that you happen to me. I always have this hope that sooner someday we'll meet in person, get married and have a simple life together, like how we imagined it. You'll make breakfast in bed for us, you'll make my coffee while i do your tea..lol! We will be the proud parents of two/three cute children and together we'll face life through its ups and down...But at the end of it all, i have to face reality that its too impossible to happen...


Anyway,I've been thinking about this for quite sometime and i don't know if this is the right thing to do or if you'll even like it. I wont be around for a few months, try to chill out a bit, ya know.Weigh things, until im absolutely over with this feelings.Get out of my comfort zone and mingle with people.Try my luck on dating..lol! Im still not sure what to do though, just go with whatever is out there for me.Have fun until im sober with this.
But this doesn't mean i'll be gone forever, i just needed a break from such "fantasy".We'll be friends for indefinitely.I will always be your Danica and you will always be my sweetest """ D""". I'll be back before you know it.And by then, I promise to be supportive when it comes to girls you like, i will be as nosy as you are..lol!

I'll miss you. I wish you wont shut me out when i come back.Goodluck with school and with everything (including Hector ). I love you ______ _______ __________. Always will..