I've seen him a thousand times.
Been with him almost all my life.
Witnessed him transform from a young boy to a man.
Saw him do the stupid deeds,
heard him say the weirdest things.
He's always been a sweetheart, not just to me but to the rest of his girl friends.
Always been caring and loving.
Pretty face with a charming smile,
"what more could a girk ask for?"
*TEASING* :D
I never pictured us being lovers,
though we've been teased since I can't remember,
just never had the guts to take it by heart.
For to me it was pure friendship built for years,
nothing more, notheing less.
.....
One day he introduced a girl.
She must be special to him.
*jelousy pinched?*
We managed to be nice to her,
but it was never appreciated.
She wanted him all by herself.
Our hands are tied when it comes to her.
She's his girlfriend, we respect that.
*BUMMER*
A year or two, things became a bit crazy.
The tension between us and his girl became hazy.
Still we can't do a thing,
and he too was already complaining.
He's too nice and stupid that he let her manipulate him like that.
I can't stand it.
I just can't allow some random person take advantage of a friend's...weakness,
not to my friends,
especially not to him.
In a nicer and calmed way, I exerted an effort to talk to her.
Tried to explain the issues she had with us which she (not surprisingly) denied.
Now were the bad guys, and she's the helpless victim.
*YEA RIGHT. BOO!*
Confronting the the problem with her was an epic fail,
and so it was up to him.
We back-off.
Days, Weeks, Month after we saw him again,
"It's over," was all he said for I to understand what he was referring to.
I stared at him for a moment to know whether he's joking or not...
"I'm impress."
He seemed okay so no further questions asked.
* HUGE :) *
Months after, and the teasing was brought up again.
By then I found myself somewhat loving being paired with him.
I'd just smile as supposse to ignoring the matter,
'cause that's what I'm used to do.
Ride on with their jokes and teased him myself.
Communicating every now and then,
but nothing special there really.
We would hang-out with our friends, and go home till the next bond again.
Often times i miss his presence, mostly not.
But for some reason, he kept on popping in my mind.
And the jokes was somehow taken into considerations.
*WHAT IF...?*
But then again, big NO.
Impossible.
Can't be.
He's my friend and thats about it.
Besides, we're not the same person back in grade school.
We're two different species.
Though he turns out to be one good-looking young man,
while I....well... (0.o)
The point is, we grew up and matured into our own separate ways,
and unfortunately out grown the past and so his puppy crush on me.
Our Friendship is more valuable than what everyone expects of us.
It's not worth any risk.
We're already happy being just HIM and I.
*BLAH
*BLAH
*BLAH
*AUGUST
*SEPTEMBER
OCTOBER.
Looking back, a slapped on my face.
I was wrong.
I was too impulsive jumping into conclusions,
and predicted the consequences easily.
By far,I never thought it could be this good,
greatest to say the least.
Surprised by so much joy,
and contentment,
appreciation,
feel special,
and love.
For doubt and fear had reign inside me for so long.
'Cause I was scared for what I have been protecting might be destroy.
Only now I realize, through out those years that we avoided the obvious,
our friendship will be the key and a stronger foundation to what the future holds for us two.
And as to what most people would say, "best things happen for those who wait/ right moment."
I believe them.
Eventhough there are still a lot to learn,
more stuffs to discover with each other,
we're both ready to welcome changes.
Maybe we're not yet that far from starting line,and looking ahead is still a long journey,
but WE are guided.
And I trust him.
And I have faith in US,
enough reason to believe, that we will make it to the finish line TOGETHER.
I'm lucky I have a FRIEND and a LOVER wrapped into ONE.
