The Letter

I don't know where to start so, im gonna have to say sorry?...i said i'll be back but i didn't, and again server has nothing to do with it...and by pressure, i meant pressure of containing my tears and holding back myself from crying...lol! With everything you told me, about your date and Hector, i cant help it but feels somewhat hurt...though i know im not in any right to feel that way...and im sorry.

Do you remember how we met and ended up talking about everything? I was looking for someone to talk to, a friend, until i saw your name and mistaken it for a girl..lol!

You seem kind of snob that time and i remember my words made you confuse 'cause i was used to texting. And right then and there, was a start of something special between us.And i never regret any of that.

The idea of breaking up was something i never wanted, but what i have to do, what WE have to do.Lot of things happened to you at that time, we weren't able to talk as much as we used to, and if we were to pursue with the relationship while you were dealing with problems, it would only make us grow apart which i think would only hurt even more.And breaking up was the only option.I also want to lessen your worry about how i feel whenever you're not around. But i am glad and happy that we still manage to keep our friendship.

One thing i never get to prepared myself, is when time comes that you will have to tell me about a girl your going out with or a new gf.I thought it would be fine with me, 'cause whenever you tell me things about a girl you don't intentionally rejected,i don't feel any jealousy or something, i was even making fun of it,of what happened.But when you told me about the date you'll have with Yolanda, and your sort of happy about it, i felt...weird.Like all of a sudden i felt like crying. Don't get me wrong, im happy that finally your going out.I'm sure she's a nice girl and you deserve to be happy, have fun with her or with anybody...Its just,i cant fake myself and pretend its cool when in fact im not.I never have any doubts whenever i tell you things about other guys 'cause i know you're fine with it, you even give me advices whenever i needed one,right? And i thought i can do the same with you, but i was wrong...I guess im kinda jealous, that they've got to be with you, laugh wit you,see your sweet smile, hold you close and just be with an amazing guy that is you.And one important reason is because i cant deny the fact that i was inlove with you and still..


No other guy made me feel the way you did. I felt the sincerity and honesty in everything you told me. I know how much you care for me..how special i am to you..and how much you truly loved me and i thank you for that.I'll always be thankful that you happen to me. I always have this hope that sooner someday we'll meet in person, get married and have a simple life together, like how we imagined it. You'll make breakfast in bed for us, you'll make my coffee while i do your tea..lol! We will be the proud parents of two/three cute children and together we'll face life through its ups and down...But at the end of it all, i have to face reality that its too impossible to happen...


Anyway,I've been thinking about this for quite sometime and i don't know if this is the right thing to do or if you'll even like it. I wont be around for a few months, try to chill out a bit, ya know.Weigh things, until im absolutely over with this feelings.Get out of my comfort zone and mingle with people.Try my luck on dating..lol! Im still not sure what to do though, just go with whatever is out there for me.Have fun until im sober with this.
But this doesn't mean i'll be gone forever, i just needed a break from such "fantasy".We'll be friends for indefinitely.I will always be your Danica and you will always be my sweetest """ D""". I'll be back before you know it.And by then, I promise to be supportive when it comes to girls you like, i will be as nosy as you are..lol!

I'll miss you. I wish you wont shut me out when i come back.Goodluck with school and with everything (including Hector ). I love you ______ _______ __________. Always will..

Talking to the Moon

King of Anything

"..all my life i've tried, to make everyone happy while i just hurt and hide...waitin' for someone to tell me its my turn to decide.."

and i swear i'll make it happen real soon...

it took awhile b4 i came to this,
i know its kinda late but i never want to miss,
d chance when all words are pouring in
to write to someone i really miss.

i miss d guy at my right side seat,
a classmate i know never cheat.
the kind of guy who`ll never make you feel blue,
a friend that will always be true to you.

the name is JEFF and he likes to surf,
surf d internet that is!
a guy with 4 eyes, "a muscular body" and have "a good voice",
i hate to lie, but i have to, to save my life!

for everyday he`s there, never failed to care,
not d usual "care" that you know, the one that would turn your hair gray.
he`ll make sure you`ll never feel alone,
coz he`s sure to bother you, that it makes you irritate to d bone!

JEFF is a star, a very bright star,
too bright that it causes darkness!
i know by now this makes him fury,
but don`t worry JEFF, you`re still a cutie..

For all i know im making a nonsense talk,
can't really figure out what to say to my folks.
For someone i haven't seen in awhile,
i hope this is enough for him to feel the longingnes (!) inside.

To you MR.JEFFRY EMERSON TAN, i want you to know that i'll always care.
im always here and will never failed to share,
a friendship that YOU&I made.
I'll stay as true as you are to me,
and this will remain forever…to you I SWEAR..

draw with me

missing you, missing us..
wondering what could have been...

10/09/2008

Tatlong araw lang ang lumipas,
pero bakit biglang nag-wakas?
Damdamin na pareho ang sinisigaw,
bakit ngayon ay biglang nalusaw?

Sabi ko mag-isip ka lang,
pero wag ka bibitaw.
Sabi ko pa unawain mo, ang tampo na madali naman matunaw.
Hindi tulad ng inaasahan ko,
lahat ng pangako biglang napako.

Sabi mo mahal mo 'ko, naniwala ako.
Sabi mo hindi mo 'ko iiwan, napanatag ang puso.
"Hind ko sisirain ang tiwala mo," nasambit mo.
Lahat ba 'to mga pag-papaasa at panloloko?

Mahal kita, walang pag-aalinlangan,
pero bakit ganito ang kinahinatnan?
Naniwala at nag-tiwala,na ikaw ang sasalo,
ngunit tulad ng iba,sinaktan mo lang din ako.

Salamat sa tamis ng kasinungalingan,
maaasahan mo na hindi kita malilimutan.
Sapagkat sa ikatlong pag-kakataon ay nabola ako,
ng isang gaya mo na walang ibang kayang gawin kundi ang mangako...

I wish i knew what to say,
'cause I'm afraid wrong words may come your way,
then you'll get bored and walk away.

But your sweet smile takes me high, as if telling me "don't cry",
then the music starts to play, sweet melody passing our way.

I hope you won't get mad once I tell you what I really feel inside,
I can't keep it no more, I LOVE YOU that's for sure!

=)

Noong una malungkot ang buhay ko,

takot ako sa liwanag at ingay ng mundo.

takot ako maging masaya dahil alam ko lungkot ang kapalit nito,

at mas takot ako makilala ng mga tao sa paligid ko.

Hanggang sa makilala ko ang pitong nilalang na nag-iba ng mundo ko.

ewan ko kung pa'no at sa'n nang-galing ang mga 'to.

parang mga kaboteng nag-sulputan sa pribadong hardin ko,

talagang tahimik kong mundo sadyang gumulo!

Si MAPPLE ang una kong nakilala sa kanila.

sa competion ng English kaya kami nag-kakilala

Masunurin sa magulang, "parent's girl" ika nga,

sweet yan..'di nga lang halata!

Sumunod si ANGELINE kay Maan.

"ate gi" kung sya'y amin tawagin

"mataas na kulot" kung amin kantsawin,

kung kaya laging sapak ang abot namin.

Si REYSHELLE ang pumangatlo sa kanila.

Valedictorian ng barkada, pambato namin talaga.

kahit na malusog, mabait naman sadya.

wag mo nga lang galitin kung ayaw mo masipa.

Pang-model ang dating, panlaban sa mga beauty pageant.

kaya sa amin walang mag-atubiling s'ya ay hamunin

sapagkat alam na namin ang mga kalaban ay kanyang kayang patumbahin

ERICKA JANE wag kalimutan sa listahan.

Bestfriend ko ang sumunod sa kanya.

sadyang makulit at maingay na siguradong kaiinisan mo talaga.

pero mattawa ka oras na topakin s'ya,

dahil walang pinipiling oras o kausap si MIKHAELLA PAULA.

Iyakin sa barkada, yan si KRISTY ROSE na isip-bata.

kung tatanungin ang paborito nyang lugar, "park" ang issagot niya.

Wag mo subukan galitin kung ayaw makita,

salubong nyang mga mata sayo'y bumulaga.

Si MARVELYN ang huli sa kanila.

grade 5 na kasi ng maging kaklase ko s'ya.

tahimik na bata ng una ko makilala,

pero tenga ko'y natotorete oras na s'ya ay tumawa.

Ngayon kilala nyo na sila,

maiisip nyo ba na weird sila?

Pero kahit ano pa paninira ang gawing ng iba,

silang pito MAHAL KONG TALAGA!

(I wrote a poem for Danica on Valentine's Day, and six days later I finally had the courage to show it to her. For some reason, she's crazy and wanted me to post it on her blog, because she was too lazy to do it herself =P even though it's terrible, here it is..)




I had a dream of us together; Alone, just you and me
Your head against my chest, so warm against my skin
Your lips were so soft, so tender and sweet
I wouldn't want to break our touch, unless you wanted

But the sad part is we are across the world
And I dwell over the fact that moment could
Only last forever in my mind, if we let it be.

And I want you to speak, only if you mean it
These words, that may mean something more
When said between you and me

But I feel it's only a dream
Because you are too good for me

-Darren

J-ust drop by to say hi
and to ask if your doing fine
silly words that i've written
in this poem full of sweeten feeling.

A moment with you is a blast
like i dont want it to last.
We may often argue,
I'll always give up and handed my heart to you.

S-weet "bhe-bhe" of mine,
sooner or later, i'll be laying my all to the line.
I might get tense,
with just one kiss, the feeling will be no-sense.

O-n this day, i'll promise you my "man",
that i will love you in the best way i can,
to prove that you're my only one,
and i will never let you down.

N-ow and forever, i am yours,
our love will endure and grow.
Hmmm..my mind's now empty,
but my heart is full of our promising story..